A smile can make anybody's day

29th May 2012

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29th May 2012……

It’s a really strange day today, I’ve felt very weird!

It’s my grandad’s 80th birthday today, a day I will never forget. Last year we did something but this year wasn’t a great option with the wedding at the weekend and my operation etc! It’s always hard saying happy birthday….so many times I just want to run up to him and say happy birthday but I know I can’t! I miss him so much, every single day! Just when I want to talk to someone who’ll listen or just share some choci with…he was the man! Hope he’s doing okay up there!!

Had my operation today, grandad actually came to say hello before hand (he’s back as a butterfly). Oli came….very glad! Just needed him there today! Feel stronger with him :) I really can’t put into words how much he has changed me, brought me back to me again and always loves me for the true me! I am so very very lucky to have someone at the side of me, supporting me the way he does! I love that boy so bloody much! I am so god damn lucky to have him :) :)

Today has been hard, but then so is every day at some point! I love you grandad, I love you Oli!

<3

15th May 2012

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I really am lacking in seeing the point of doing the core1 re-sit tomorrow, its a bag of balls. I’m going to do shit. FACT. I just know there’s literally like two things I can do on a paper…It is way too late to try and change this now! Don’t see point??!!

14th May 2012

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RANT

Jesus!! Why is the nhs sooooo stupid?!

I have been ringing all morning for an appoitment with the doctor due to an infection that is causing me pain and needs to be seen to.

It’s monday, and I got this response ‘Can it wait until next wednesday because that’s the earliest appoitment I have available’ NEXT FUCKING WEDNESDAY?!! NO! How was I supposed to know that I was going to be in pain, and ring ahead a week and a half in fucking advance! I start my A levels tomorrow you stupid twat does that mean nothing to you?!?!?!?!!?

ARRRGGHHH!

rant over. i’m hapy.

7th May 2012

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I don’t care what anybody says but knowing you have a perfect boyfriend is the most amazing feeling ever :)

I think about what we have right now and everything that he is to me, and it literally brings a tear to my eye to think I’m so lucky! I have never smiled and laughed the way I do with him, I love him so bloody much for everything he is….its just heavenly!

It’s amazing how you can look at someone and know that you could not be happier for who they are and who they have become in your life! Sometimes life sucks…all I have to do is look at Oli and know everything is going to be okay!

I truly do love that man so so much and cannot put into words just what he has done for me! I love him so much :) 8 months! 8 perfect months!

25th April 2012

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IT NEEDS TO STOP RAINING!

Seriously I’m scared of capitals so this means business!! Grrr :(

22nd April 2012

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I truly am so very very lucky to have Oli! I feel like utter shit and I’m now past knowing what’s up, and yet still he is here looking after me, rubbing my back when I’m coughing my lungs up, getting me water when I feel like I’m about to die! He just honestly is amazing in how much he takes care of me! Don’t know what I’d do without him! :)

Just wanna go back to Chester….beautiful city, beautiful place, beautiful boy….so lovely just to not think about anyone other than us!! Just pure perfection! God I love that man!

18th April 2012

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I feel like utter shit with tonsilitus yet again, so Olis stayed over to look after me because he’s amazing and perfect like that :))
But knowing he is in the next room, with a double bed and I cant snuggle up with him when I feel this shit, is poo! I just wanna fall asleep in his arms safely….not anything else! :) he’s soooooo amazing tbh! :):)

16th March 2012

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This weekend (other than the working of 20 hours with a 7 hour break) should be lovely! Get to spend the whole weekend with my gorgoues boyfriend :D Cannot wait! <3